I have always tried to be a good man, I feel like thats important. In these past months I have been put to the test, sometimes I feel like a pinball sometimes I feel like the machine. My sole lights up bright with a neon sign "tilt". Sometimes I think I want a woman who understands me...something I want a woman who doesnt. I am terrified of old people, there incompetence reflects my mortality, I think about everyone I know....and loosing them all. Sometimes I am too attached....and melodramatic