My fingers locked arsenal tight around my steering wheel
somewhere between North Dakota and daylight.
The hum of 2 sleeping band-mates
snoring keeps me awake.
Breathing slinked up like an automatic machine gun of nasal congestion
jabbed into sleeping bags like oily rags into Molotov cocktails.
We earn it
the bags under our eyes are like that awkward fleshy
stump your grandfather hung his innocence on after the war.
This summer
our goal every night was to draw more kids than the...of hours it took us to get to the shows
and here at 15 and counting I know this is a little more than ambitious
the horizon bends like an over loaded barbell.
You hear statistics
clock miles and count shells
recount merchandise money and try to balance it with gas mileage
but out here at never ever o clock
and less than 3 c.d.s worth of gas left in the tank
you begin to understand
where this country can hide 75000 tons of bombs
or how the Donor party diner party could have stomached there menu
so....
When your sweating led from the tip of a pen
dryer than a 50 year old cabernet
onto a job application that will
be shuffled like an ace into a Vegas black jack deck,
you cant help but wonder.
Where can I put the name of the kid in Utah who has my lyrics tattooed across his stomach?
Should I list "dreamer" as a former occupation or a current qualification?
There isnt a scale for the big ones.
No one knows how deep the ocean is,
or anything worth being measured, cant be.
I could have a doctorate in loading guitar amps up stairs
or locating a fan by the color and shape of there hair.
If there were a temperature for my lifes experience in the past few years
the mercury would Pompeii itself through the end of the thermometer.
Every damn interview stained red with disappointment
splattering mouthfuls of mileage
like a Tommy gun shower of "well keep your resume on file"
Relearning the talk of a people who speak in blanks
after years of whispers that could rip your fucking chest apart.
I figured out where they put there weapons
but have no idea where they hide there passion.